Desperately Seeking Lolita

It's hard to be Lolita in my town. It's hard to even get an idea of what Lolita is. I've met one Lolita in real life, seen two, and I cannot tell you how many hours I've spent online trying to get a handle on the whole idea- I was first interested in Lolita when I saw a couple pictures of Lolitas online. At first, though, I kind of dismissed it as just another pretty subculture. But then I read the book Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. I loved it, thought it was creepy and terrible and loved it. About two days later, I heard the song "Gothic Lolita" by Emilie Autumn, and began thinking "okay, now I just HAVE to revisit this whole Lolita idea." About a week after that, I met a real live Lolita! In a mall about 40 minutes from where I live. We only talked for about five minutes, she liked my broken gothic dolly look of the day and I loved her bell skirt and curls... I think she was a Hime Lolita, she had a little tiara. Just so perfect <3 Apparently the Universe was conspiring to make me Lolita...

I think these girls are perfect.

I'm goth. I like certain elements of many different styles, from punk-inspired to Victorian Gothic to cybergoth. Gothic Lolita is my newest interest to add to the collection. If I could have two or three skirts, three or four tops and a dress or two, I would be very very extremely happy. It is not a style I think I could pull off every day, but I do love it quite a lot. Maybe one day I could wear it more often, but right now I just don't have time for elegance. I keep ending up in ripped skinny jeans and band T-shirts. But then I have made some progress- I have a bell petticoat and some pastel, high-waisted skirts to put over it, and I've discovered that some things I already owned can be converted to Lolita with minimal effort! I have a purple shirt with a ruffled collar, stockings, and cute black and white Demonia shoes:. I own also a few over sized hair bows, a cupcake necklace and various other small jewelry items that could be or are meant to be Lolita. One day I will own a lovely dress like one of these:

So basically right now I'm just keeping my hopes up! Someday I'll be pretty! Though sadly I don't know that I could ever afford some of the brand names, Angelic Pretty in particular :(

San Francisco Plans

 Obviously while in San Francisco, I'll be doing my very best to go to Angelic Pretty and Black Peace Now, as I have never been in any Lolita stores (where I live there just aren't any within a five-hour drive, but five and a half hours away lies San Francisco! Squee!) 

 I like Alice in Wonderland themed dresses, sweet Lolita and of course Gothic Lolita. Hopefully I can get one dress from San Francisco. *crosses fingers* but I know how expensive Lolita brand names can be, so I'm hoping to hit a sale or some fairly plain skirt or dress that I can pair with everything... 

I waaaaant these. They go so perfectly with so many aspects of my imaginary style. I would wear them every day.

Online Shopping Results

 cupcake necklace from amazon.com

 pink and black heart sunglasses also from Amazon, polkadot sunglasses from Deb's

 cupcake fabric from JoAnn's (it was on sale- and it's just so cute!) 

 bubble umbrella (since I'm going to Seattle next ween and I want to live in places that get a lot of rain, I look at this more like an investment... it's from amazon.com too, I think the retailer was greatlooks)

 a short petticoat! It gives my skirts that perfect bell-shape. I am so happy about it. ^.^

Cupcake Crazy

 I've been up to a lot of food-oriented things lately, which of course means... a lot of excuses to make cute cupcakes! The rainbow tray is for a visiting Russian delegation, the blue ones were for a class party. 

 I love this one

 This is pretty cute too

I've just realized how much I love these sweet swirly plates... perfect for displaying cupcakes!

Very Sad News

So many tears as I write this...
well, not really, I have yet to cry over clothes, but I AM disappointed...
Remember that cute dress I ordered online?

well, I just got an email from the website saying that they're out of stock, so I can't have my lovely ruffled dress... Of course they gave me a full refund and everything, but I am still very sad at the lack of this beautiful piece... 

More cupcakes!!

A favorite teacher of mine is having a birthday, so I made him cupcakes.
No, it totally wasn't just an excuse to make adorable cupcakes in a different color.

 sorry for the hand in the picture, I didn't realize it was there until just now >.< and there is no other cute picture of the pink and chocolate cupcake...

 for some reason, I love the messiness of this. Usually I love perfection and sweet adorableness, but the layers of color spray and dripping frosting actually are cool to me

and then the whole container of cupcakes :) I don't think these are as cute as the last ones I made, but they are pretty darn cute

New Dress!

I haven't actually recieved it yet, but I ordered this dress a few days ago. I'm hoping to wear it for the next dance, graduation, and maybe my birthday party... I think it's really neat! Sort of a gothic lolita, which perfectly describes me! ^.^ so excited to get it and put it on!